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Thursday, May 31, 2012 @ 9:22:00 AM - Written by Doug Hignell -

After a very busy first three weeks of May, I’ve once again withdrawn to rest and radically disengage for a day or two. During this time, I’ve been deeply impacted by the book Simply Jesus and You: Experience His Presence & His Purpose by Joseph M. Stowell. I highly recommend this small, yet powerful book. The following quote captures the theme of Simply Jesus and You:

"A relationship with Jesus is not about us. It’s about Him. He didn’t die for us to advance His cause or hawk His wares. He died for you because He loves you, and seeks to welcome us into a growing and satisfying fellowship with Him” (8).

More and more, it’s becoming clearer to me that my daily struggle between performing and resting in His presence is actually, in fact, a struggle between being preoccupied with myself or with Jesus. I’m realizing that I’m at a point in my life in which I’m coming to grips with whether "He” or "me” is the core of my existence. Stowell goes on to say this:

"Stepping into a deepening experience with Jesus is something more than keeping short accounts with sin in our lives. It’s beyond that. It is about coming to grips with a huge barrier that stands between Jesus and you. It is the barrier of preoccupation with ourselves. In order to experience Him, we have to eliminate the competition—and the competition is us!” (27).

When I’m absorbed with myself, I might be great at performing, but this doesn’t satisfy my soul or solve the restless searching of my heart for more of His presence. Stowell sums it up well:

"I’m only in my early sixties, and I already find myself weary of the hollow memories of what few accomplishments I may have mustered in my life. My failures continue to embarrass me. The inadequacies I have carried with me since my youth still frustrate me. My insecurities still trouble my soul. And the praise of others has an increasingly hollow ring . . . I’m tired of worrying about what people think about me . . . Bottom line, I just flat out get tired of me. But I never get tired of Jesus” (33).

I’ll end this post with a prayer: Jesus, it’s easy for me to fudge, to think that I can be fully absorbed with myself and in focused pursuit of You at the same time. However, You are making it clear that this isn’t reality, that I can’t have it both ways. Jesus, help me live the rest of my life with it being "all about You.”

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